Why You Aren’t Consistent and How You Can Change it

My biggest problem has never been not knowing what to do. It has never been knowing what not to do. It has always been achieving the desired outcome consistently. Just in the past week I have developed myself even further. The problem though is that I am volatile.

The first half of last week starts of as best as I could have hoped for. With the reading of a fantastic book called “The Greatest Salesman in the World” by Og Mandino and the introductory part of Eben Pagan’s “Wake Up Productive” course motivation levels were at an all time high.

I was waking up early, doing Yoga, getting work done through the day and at night I was meditating. That was until outside influences come into play.

I need to develop a more solid framework so I am not so easily thrown out of my routine and habits. That’s the key word there, habit. I have not been practising these new ways of life enough for them to be a habit.

It was either Wednesday night that I had a fight with my girlfriend that went well in to the night. I woke up late, so I didn’t get much done during the day. I got a little bit done on Thursday night and went to sleep late. Again I woke up late and ended up going out with friends for a night out. I didn’t get to sleep until around 4am Saturday morning either.

Saturday was spent recovering from the night before and Sunday is usually the one day I try to take things easy on. I didn’t get to sleep until around 5am this morning and woke up at 2pm.

It’s now 4pm, Monday afternoon and without even realising it I am back where I started. I was making an concerted effort to keep things in check and on task. Even just writing this makes me feel weak. I mean come on, you have a fight with your girlfriend so you don’t work for 4 days? That is just ridiculous.

I’m sure that people who are successful in business don’t let things like this throw them off so badly. What I am struggling to understand is how things like this affect me so badly. I moved out of home at 15 and have always considered myself a bit of a hard arse. Somewhere along the way I’ve started letting these little things get to me.

During the past few days I’ve seen myself visiting the forums more often as well. I even had to delete a post because I knew I just didn’t want to get involved. I wrote a post the other day about increasing productivity. In that post I quite clearly said that forums are a waste of time.

Maybe my opinion on forums is jaded by I don’t think I have ever received much value from them. Of course, I have met fantastic people and have been able to get in contact with affiliate managers.

In terms of actual quality learning I think not. I actually think it has been detrimental to me more than anything else. The few times I have asked for help when I was new, in terms of a site review etc, I got replies like “awesome site!” That was despite the fact that there were several crucial and costly mistakes being made (which I didn’t know at the time).

So where am I going with this rant? I have changed my password so I can’t login. I don’t know what it is so I can’t post anymore. Apart from PMs (which I get emailed) and the market place I have no reason to be there.

I write this blog to give back what I can to people that want to read it. I don’t need to post on there “to give back.” I have what I consider to be some really great friends on MSN and Skype. I am at a point where outside misinformation and gossip is just adding to the mess.

What’s going to change this time?

The reason that I haven’t started week one of Pagan’s course is that I still haven’t completed the introduction activities. On the list that I had created were several items I have to clear up in my life so that I can move on with a clear mind. A lot of the things on the list were to do with setting up my bank accounts properly and my business legitimately for tax purposes. I seem to always be in a mad rush that I overlook the basic steps.

I try to rush on to the next task just so I can finish and will achieve results quicker. It just doesn’t work like that. I end up having a life of half arsed, half finished tasks.

The other thing that I have noticed is that I am using Google Chrome a lot. I know why that is. It’s because I have blocked myself from websites using Firefox.

I only just picked up on that so I have started using Firefox again so I can block myself from time wasting activities during the day.

The Bigger Picture

I understand that I can put almost anything in place to stop myself doing things. The big picture though, is why do I want to keep doing those things? I have to actually want to make the change. I need to be motivated about my work, about doing the best I can throughout the day.

Writing another poker review does not really excite me in the slightest. It is not fulfilling to me and makes me feel like “is this what I do for a living?” It is probably because I have over a hundred pages that needed to be written in a short space of time. All I can see is a mountain of work and yet another article to write.

I tend to get caught up on “what ifs” a lot. Focusing on one day at a time, what needs to be done and actually doing it is a key point for me. It is easier said than done though.

They say that you need to be passionate about what you do in life to be able to perform at your best. I think working online and managing a network of businesses both online and offline is something that I want to do. What I am not particularly interested in though is sitting in a small, hot room all day pumping out articles while being isolated to the world.

Perhaps I am coming across as trying to run before I can walk. Maybe it means I don’t work hard enough, that I am being too lazy and short sighted. I just know that sitting here thinking to myself “I have to write reviews and mundane articles today” is fucking boring. Who wants to wake up, think about what they are going to do all day and know that they have to sit in a room and write gambling reviews?

I find myself putting a lot more effort into this blog than my own sites. That is purely because I enjoy talking more about personal development and helping people if I can. It isn’t that I don’t want to work. I am on here 16 hours a day. It is that I need to be passionate about what I do.

I have made some progress by implementing some of the copywriting and website usability things that I have learned recently.

If I can work towards being a world class copywriter, SEO or entrepreneur then I’ll be more than happy. Writing gambling reviews to make a few bucks isn’t fulfilling to me.

I have always had high expectations for myself and been my own harshest critic. Perhaps being my own harshest critic demotivates me because I put myself down. That being said, I have done a two things recently to improve my situation:

• Working on 2, big sites. These will be a real source of information and big money makers. A “xxx bonus” site excites me none.
• A new business venture. I am working on an industry service that will be more like a business, rather than a website.

I think that by trying to slowly work towards things that I am excited about is definitely the best move. I am way too volatile to try to continue to do unfulfilling tasks. I am the guy that is the best or the worst. At the moment I am the worst. There doesn’t seem to be an in between with me. My goal is to be the best I can, all of the time. Can’t ask for much more right?

Even though I lot of this post has a lot to do with me personally, I hope readers can get something out of this. Whether you can relate to it or perhaps it keeps you on track so you don’t stray from your path; let me know what you think.

I know that consistency will be my key to success. I can’t be consistent unless I am fulfilling my aspirations. To do that I need to be excited about what I am doing. This all goes back to creating your business to shape how you want to live your life. Not what other people say is the best way to do things.

Consistency is the key.